How do you trust yourself??!

that question is bugging me..i'm struggling whit self trust.

it makes me sad that eventhough i was aware of it i cant do something about it. 

I always seek for other's affirmation that i can do things..

Im afraid to trust myself.. I might get wrong.

but im taking actions with of course by seeking other people's help.

i've read an acticle about selftrust but i wasn't able to finish it but its a good read though.

he don't care.. and i dont too.

fine he forgot my birthday and guess what.. so damn hate him.
his so bastos. just hate .
i'll just stick and fine someone better than him.
i mean his the worst.
and from this post of mine. i'll be ending my agony.
i'll stop liking him. haha. super indeed. i'l just focus on the things that need to be done.
and maybe forget about him.
haha.
i'm embracing a new search..
search for a new crush. haha
appear apir!!

Birthday

my birthday is over..

another passed by..haha...
its weird actually because i was so so lazy. i didn't even went to school because its my birthday and good thing our professor wasn't there haha. thank God its my birthday.
present?? actually good wishes from everyone. except from HIM.
but anyways my day was fun. i was able to bake my own cake and added some twist to the usual brownies. actually i promised tara that i'll be on hunger strike but the brownies was so good that i cant resist and even everyone loved it so much.

i even played badminton in the afternoon when the sun wasn't so shinning and hot. i played it with our very wonderful wall that tiries me in picking up the bird. haha

btw, back to wishes, haha Mariz' wish was so funny. "more boyfriends to come" haha. even revi loved it ahaha..
indeed.

everytime write my thoughts here. i always end up being hopeless..
but to day it was a bit different...
i'm feeling hopefull!!

my cousin den who is a twilight freak visited me and shared some twilight freaks with me that end up me being a bit a fanatic. haha.. that leads me to be disappointed to some tech that my sis' fone cant read. grrr so hate it.
haha